Meh - Bored

Yeah...so...things have been boring as of late.

All I have done in the last week is move, clean, and organize (apart from a day spent with friends). I haven't felt this bored in a long time. I do various activities for maybe 20 minutes and then get sick of them. I can only watch so much TV (which I am beginning to loathe again), read so many forums, or whatever.

It's funny because I'm at a point where I have so much free time, but all the stuff I want to do, I can't. 360 is broken, I have no license or money, and things just aren't working well. I wanted to play videogames for most of May before I had stuff to do this summer, well now they overlap.

An obvious solution would be to do all of my work now during my freetime, but when it comes down to it I'm just sick of it...maybe dealing with it is something I've just gotta learn to deal with, I'm not sure.

When I look at my options to spend my time I could: find a book to read, finish cleaning/organizing my stuff (which I do, but with very little effort and it is spread across long gaps of time), work on my sermonette for CBC, think about Special Person's Camp, exercise for once in my life, or whatever...but I don't do any of those things; for the most part I don't like doing any of those things, but i know I need to do them or work on them.

Maybe my apathy and agitation is coming from all the crap I had to do within the last week, maybe it's the fact that it's now becoming 80 degrees outside now (uggh...stupid summer), maybe I'm just a lazy & worthless bum...I don't know, perhaps all of the above. I have no real stress. It isn't really a lot of junk. I have it relatively easy right now, but I just can't do anything.

Bah! I'm such an emo kid...lame.

Anyway, on the positive, my sister is moved out and her new place is nice. I'm fairly content with what I have accomplished and where I think that I'm going in life; I managed 2 A's & 2 B's this semester and even though next semester will be at least 150% harder I hope to do just as well (if not better). All my commitments this summer make me proud of my giving and compassionate character; it shows to myself that I am growing up and becoming more responsible.

I can sleep in, party, and do nothing most of the time without worries...which is nice. I've been listening to some music while typing this and it reminded me that I want the Alchemy Index Vol: 3+4 (Earth + Wind) album by Thrice.

Well I'll probably go mess around with my closet and find some junk I never use to give to good will (I already found plenty of clothes I don't want). I look at all of my crap that I've acquired over the years and I realize that most of it is just gifts or free junk that I truly didn't want or fads/phases-related junk. The only things that I think are good for keeping were all my action figures + stuff (Playmobiles & Legos and whatnot)...but I no longer need them, they have been replaced by videogames.



Anyway, this blog is more than long and pointless, so in a Seth-like fashion I'll attempt to make a summary and end up turning it into a mini-rambling:

I'm bored as crap and sick of doing physical labor (including organizing/cleaning), I miss my 360, I'm being an emo kid and need to suck it up since I really don't have it bad AT ALL, I have too much junk that I don't need or want, I need to focus on God a little more than I am currently, and I honestly miss James & Lauren tremendously! I'm glad I'll get to see them in a couple weeks....although they should move back to Illinois ;) *wink-wink* !

But yeah, thanks to everyone that reads/cares and leaves comments (even if they are carrot-ridden and pointless). I love you all and thanks for the support. I'm off to either look through my Bible, organize some crap, and/or eat.

...I talk to much...