Yeah...so...things have been boring as of late.
All I have done in the last week is move, clean, and organize (apart from a day spent with friends). I haven't felt this bored in a long time. I do various activities for maybe 20 minutes and then get sick of them. I can only watch so much TV (which I am beginning to loathe again), read so many forums, or whatever.
It's funny because I'm at a point where I have so much free time, but all the stuff I want to do, I can't. 360 is broken, I have no license or money, and things just aren't working well. I wanted to play videogames for most of May before I had stuff to do this summer, well now they overlap.
An obvious solution would be to do all of my work now during my freetime, but when it comes down to it I'm just sick of it...maybe dealing with it is something I've just gotta learn to deal with, I'm not sure.
When I look at my options to spend my time I could: find a book to read, finish cleaning/organizing my stuff (which I do, but with very little effort and it is spread across long gaps of time), work on my sermonette for CBC, think about Special Person's Camp, exercise for once in my life, or whatever...but I don't do any of those things; for the most part I don't like doing any of those things, but i know I need to do them or work on them.
Maybe my apathy and agitation is coming from all the crap I had to do within the last week, maybe it's the fact that it's now becoming 80 degrees outside now (uggh...stupid summer), maybe I'm just a lazy & worthless bum...I don't know, perhaps all of the above. I have no real stress. It isn't really a lot of junk. I have it relatively easy right now, but I just can't do anything.
Bah! I'm such an emo kid...lame.
Anyway, on the positive, my sister is moved out and her new place is nice. I'm fairly content with what I have accomplished and where I think that I'm going in life; I managed 2 A's & 2 B's this semester and even though next semester will be at least 150% harder I hope to do just as well (if not better). All my commitments this summer make me proud of my giving and compassionate character; it shows to myself that I am growing up and becoming more responsible.
I can sleep in, party, and do nothing most of the time without worries...which is nice. I've been listening to some music while typing this and it reminded me that I want the Alchemy Index Vol: 3+4 (Earth + Wind) album by Thrice.
Well I'll probably go mess around with my closet and find some junk I never use to give to good will (I already found plenty of clothes I don't want). I look at all of my crap that I've acquired over the years and I realize that most of it is just gifts or free junk that I truly didn't want or fads/phases-related junk. The only things that I think are good for keeping were all my action figures + stuff (Playmobiles & Legos and whatnot)...but I no longer need them, they have been replaced by videogames.
Anyway, this blog is more than long and pointless, so in a Seth-like fashion I'll attempt to make a summary and end up turning it into a mini-rambling:
I'm bored as crap and sick of doing physical labor (including organizing/cleaning), I miss my 360, I'm being an emo kid and need to suck it up since I really don't have it bad AT ALL, I have too much junk that I don't need or want, I need to focus on God a little more than I am currently, and I honestly miss James & Lauren tremendously! I'm glad I'll get to see them in a couple weeks....although they should move back to Illinois ;) *wink-wink* !
But yeah, thanks to everyone that reads/cares and leaves comments (even if they are carrot-ridden and pointless). I love you all and thanks for the support. I'm off to either look through my Bible, organize some crap, and/or eat.
...I talk to much...
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Catching up/reflections
Well it has been a while since I've blogged. A lot has happened...well not really. Finals are done with...grades should be out next week *fingers crossed* :-\ and then of course there's the terror that is a broken 360...
Plenty of people probably cannot relate (to the broken xbox), but one of my passions and number one hobbies is playing videogames. The only way I can help someone relate is like this: say if you're a musician (guitarist, pianist, etc.), say your instrument becomes broken in a way that you have to go without it for a couple weeks....you really do not have any output. Sure, there are other things to do (and I am doing them) but nothing quenches your enjoyment like said activity; I could spend hours playing videogames much like a musician could jam for hours on end without knowing it, a fan of some trilogy or TV series could watch for hours on end, an athlete can go shoot hoops or whatever for hours on end, and so on.
ANYWAY, during my loss I haven't done much (watched a ton of TV) and still procrastinated on my room getting cleaned (which I'm going to have to make my mission tomorrow or else it won't get done). I hung out at some pals' place for few days which was awesome and now that I'll be back in Batavia rather than DeKalb, I'll probably be spending more time over there and definitely again this week.
I need to pick up some books to read over the summer as well. I guess I'll be spending more time over at the "Cedar House" (my pals' place) over the next few weeks until my summer shenanigans start.
Anyway, I've been watching 30 days, reading forums, talking philosophy with pals, and other stuff having to do with life...and really it's like all my jumbled thoughts, ideals, or whatever you wanna call them really seem to make more and more sense. There are some things that I wish I had done in the past years, but I think since I'm sorta glad where I am today...I don't really regret anything.
Well I've got church tomorrow and I don't want to be sleeping when my Uncle comes to pick me up in the morning. Just remember that everyone that you come across in your daily life is nothing but human. Drop the labels, quit dehumanizing, and simply care...every human needs to work on that, including me.
Plenty of people probably cannot relate (to the broken xbox), but one of my passions and number one hobbies is playing videogames. The only way I can help someone relate is like this: say if you're a musician (guitarist, pianist, etc.), say your instrument becomes broken in a way that you have to go without it for a couple weeks....you really do not have any output. Sure, there are other things to do (and I am doing them) but nothing quenches your enjoyment like said activity; I could spend hours playing videogames much like a musician could jam for hours on end without knowing it, a fan of some trilogy or TV series could watch for hours on end, an athlete can go shoot hoops or whatever for hours on end, and so on.
ANYWAY, during my loss I haven't done much (watched a ton of TV) and still procrastinated on my room getting cleaned (which I'm going to have to make my mission tomorrow or else it won't get done). I hung out at some pals' place for few days which was awesome and now that I'll be back in Batavia rather than DeKalb, I'll probably be spending more time over there and definitely again this week.
I need to pick up some books to read over the summer as well. I guess I'll be spending more time over at the "Cedar House" (my pals' place) over the next few weeks until my summer shenanigans start.
Anyway, I've been watching 30 days, reading forums, talking philosophy with pals, and other stuff having to do with life...and really it's like all my jumbled thoughts, ideals, or whatever you wanna call them really seem to make more and more sense. There are some things that I wish I had done in the past years, but I think since I'm sorta glad where I am today...I don't really regret anything.
Well I've got church tomorrow and I don't want to be sleeping when my Uncle comes to pick me up in the morning. Just remember that everyone that you come across in your daily life is nothing but human. Drop the labels, quit dehumanizing, and simply care...every human needs to work on that, including me.
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)